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Nov. 8th, 2009

Dis-orientation

So, it's official: I've finally come out of the closet.

As an asexual.

I wish that I could say that I'm happy with this revelation, but it has only left me feeling even more isolated. The prospect of never having a relationship or a family is disheartening enough, but the thought of dying alone - forgotten - is almost unbearable. Could this really be my ultimate reward for enduring the hell that my own brain has subjected me to all these years? For endlessly fighting a losing battle against mental illness?

Well. I always have the option of cutting it short. A rather strange and grim comfort, I suppose, but It's all I have for the time being.
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Jun. 29th, 2008

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I dreamt of Nietzsche.

"Man can only find purpose in deconstruction," I told him with resolute conviction.

I am not sure how to interpret this dream. It's not very clear what I meant by 'deconstruction', and in spite of my frequently bleak outlook on the world, I don't consider myself a true Nihilist. As well as I know myself, I can't discern whether this dream reflects the state of my psyche, or is just part of another wacky subconscious montage.

But regardless. Dreams featuring famous philosophers are pure awesomeness. 
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Nov. 20th, 2007

Genesis

As all things have a beginning, so shall this entry be devoted solely to the first post.